Wanna explore my boundaries!!!

I have been in a 34 year marriage that recently ended,  he is the only man I've been sexually. I've always been intrigued with bdsm but never explored it.  I want to be manhandled,  dominated,  tied up and fucked!! Problem is I'm not an aggressive female when I first meet someone, I'm not good at saying what I want and I'm not one to initiate so I usually wind up at home alone. I'm learning tho!!

53, Straight